love in loneliness

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.
You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.

last day

I hate all the last days. now me in the abexome and its my last day here. i at times think i shouldn't be close with people because when you separate it can't be explained. i never thought people here will like me. the party they gave for me was awesome. am i worth their tears? i dunno, but i don wanna cry.i don wanna see them crying. they are too good. i pray god to shower all the good fortunes to them in all the days ahead. i really gonna miss them a lot......... i'm happy that i was able make them all laugh a little( i think so). if i do have hurt them in anyway i'm sorry.the food court wow. i have never had such lunches in my past. thanks to you all for making my days most memorable.oh God i dunno how to express my feelings. i hope all feelings should be felt and not described.i can feel how bad they also feel . i can understand. please God don make them cry. i don wanna see them crying. and God gimme strength to face them too.

my gaffe

i never know that i hurt people when i tease them. my friends usually enjoy them. they also join in even to tease themselves. my head most incident happened some 4 days back. when one of my friend told that he gets hurt when i tease him. for the premier time in my life some one has said that i hurt them bad. i really feel sorry about that. i try to stop teasing others but i cant. i think its in my own blood. i can try for a blood transfusion. (ha ha he ehe). never i know it will be this serious. i ask sorry from the bottom of my heart to him. its really bad to dig the horrible past of your friend. actually i dunno him entirely. he never shares anything to me. then how can i find whats in him. friend do help me in molding me to be a better human in this world. i don wanna continue this same mistake else where. je ressens pour mon erreur. after all to err is man, so i made a mistake. that proves me a human. any way i din mean it to hurt that person. i think its time to stop my kidding job. let me be matured ,which is real hard for me.

save tiger

after a month i went to home for my GATE (so called exam) exam. I did not prepare for that exam well because i least had time and i never got mood to learn anything in Bangalore. please don expect that im gonna say a word about my exam, i wont.so i was watching tv as usual at home, when i saw the add save tigers. i really felt bad when they said that we have only 1148 tigers in our country now. that really bad. i wanted to share it with you all friends. when we were kids i remember seeing tigers in zoo and national parks but now its become a rare sight to see a tiger in national parks too. people say that if you are lucky you will be able to see a tiger in a visit to park. its not the matter of luck to us. it really means that its a very bad luck for those tigers . so please friends try to save them and promote this to all for the welfare of the tigers and to maintain the biodiversity of the land. come man its our national animal. do not put a situation that our future generation will see them only in museums. LIVE AND LET OTHERS ALSO LIVE... hope the future of the tigers will be bright.

our lunch time

actually i like the lunch time in my office. even in the tight schedule we do really play. as you all know I'm much interested in pulling others legs i do it here too. i tease my office mates a lot that they run on seeing me. here comes the story. names are changed as per the request of them. there is a guy called Mr.G in my office. he has a gal friend that even the gal friend doesn't know about it. we used to tease him jolly well. but the Mr.G has two gal friends. that's the twist in the story. and there is another guy who volunteered himself to be a villain in this story.i really dunno who this villain is behind but he is very much interested to be a part of this story. here comes another gal ,that's friend of the heroin. she has a boy friend in the apartments next to our office. but that lover died because the gal was bite by a mice in our lab. im really feeling bad for that mice. then she became a mice woman and is fighting against the evil.anyway its a happy ending not only for the hero but also for the villain coz there are two gals in the movie. as all Indian movie the villain will turn good so i can spare him a gal in the movie...thus the end of the story. happily ever after..................

i think those ppl are gonna kill me on reading this. anyway do not take it serious, all the above story is imaginary not real. its made for fun and nothing is to hurt anybody. if it does im really sorry for that. hope you all enjoyed the movie. i thank you all for making every day here in abexome a memorable one. hope you ppl won forget me so soon for what i have done now.

my first solar eclipse

hey for the first time in my life i saw solar eclipse today in my office in bangalore. it was awesome to see it really. i saw through x-ray films. i saw the crescent shape of sun. remaining was hidden by the moon that comes in between the sun and the earth. i even tried to take a picture about it but i couldn't get it yar. so sorry i couldn't add the picture of that. i can never forget this in my life because every first thing in life will never fade from our memory. i went up to the terrace along with vanitha. everybody else has already seen but we were busy with our PCR work so couldn't join my friends. we took 2 X-ray sheet and first she saw it and gave it to me. i took it in hand and looked through it. marvelous man, i saw golden yellow crescent and a very dark big moon. the golden crescent , the sun was looking so good. i wanted to watch all the day but i have to get down to my floor else i will be moved out of the office permanently. so i came back. I'm feeling really hungry now. we are not suppose to eat during this eclipse because the food easily get contaminated as the sun's rays are not too strong today. so i had breakfast with vanitha. she has brought chappati which myself and rajesh had together. it was around 10 in the morning and i can have food only after taking bath in the evening but i can't bare the hunger till that so i will have food by 4 (hopefully).this is my day which i can always look back whenever i hear about eclipse.

the picture above was not taken by me. but i saw a similar one today

my new year celebration

yesterday was a happy new year to all. it started well for me too. i was talking with my mom and with Ram at 12 then dozed off at 12.45. then as i had work in office i came and was doing my working hoping to get a positive result at least on new year. we inoculated the colonies and supriya left by 12.00 and i was with our Dr. Magudi, chatting along. then dinesh came and we continued the work. we did colony PCR and again we were chatting about our school life and college life. then we found that all were negative result. i don know what to do. i seriously prayed on new year not for me but for that bacteria, yet i din get even a single positive colony. one other big mistake that i still regret doing is that i threw the colony plates to wash room, thank heavens as yesterday was a holiday and no wash boys were there to wash off the plates so that Dinesh was able to collect some more colonies and inoculate it after i left the place. i couldn't sleep well last night, i seriously dunno why. i have done too bad in this past 2 week training. praying my training shouldn't be as worst as it was so for. God please make me think before i act or at least make me ask some one before i do anything. friends do pray for me......